I thought that breaking down my life to bare essentials would solve my problems but it merely exacerbated them.
Yet this phase was a learning process and it had just begun.
“Transient Opaqueness”
Ice shards falling
While I am sprawling out on the ground
The rough fluff submerges me into submission
On a mission to fade away slowly
My energy is lowly and veins contract
Eyes go black only to be awoken later
Later comes when the stress succumbs to the recesses of my psyche
And people actually like me instead of tolerating insolence
But insolent I am not
Sympathetic to the rot that permeates those around me
Seeking for meaning
Shrieking for leaving those who I loved behind
But the love I felt was artificial at best
Superficially resonating from my chest
The chest that holds a beating heart
The chest that takes a beating til dark
The chest that holds fleeting remarks a little too long
The plights of self-consciousness plagues my mantra
As I vacillate between two diverging paths
The path of carefree glee and a blindness of what’s to see
Or a path ingrained with struggle with rubble to sift through
And not one to guide you
This jagged trail is the one I choose
The unmarked, unwanted road is the one I goad to work for me
On a quest to find glee
With the power vested in me
I shall find clarity